Will i know?

“It’s the 7th may; Sunday. Outside it’s sunny and bright. All the flowers are blooming in mummy’s garden. It’s a beautiful day; all of us are with you ”... I pause 

He gasp for air; I look at mom and tell her that it’s time to let go. Mom tries to utter few sentences... I know she couldn’t do it; how could she possibly sum up the emotions of 33 yrs in just a minute or two. 

I squeeze his hand; his pulse is fading. Daddy you gave your best; we are so proud of you. You don’t have to fight anymore; it’s ok to go; we ll be fine and we ll miss you a lot. We love you daddy... my heart is going to crush as I summon all the strength to bid good bye. 

He slowly breaths last 3 times; his last life line.... and then there is silence. Dad has gone for 3 yrs now; and my heart still ache. I still cry when no one is watching. I look up at the sky when i go out  and talk to  you, convincing myself that the gods around would  convey my message to you. Every time I look after a jolly old patient, I feel in my heart that you would have been like that. There are times I feel like your soul is tied with the trees and the mountains; for you have loved nature all your life. Every tree i touch or every mountains i climb i feel closer to you. when ever I miss You , I listen to those songs that you used to sing and I see you strumming guitar or dancing with mom. 

I believe in fate and i know we will meet again somewhere, some day.  But, will i know?